2 days left to go..i have seriously no feelings whatsoever...honestly...is this normal?a friend told me probably i havent felt it yet...must be at the airport that time to experience it..really?
2 other friends told me i should be crying right now...lol...cant feel any tear yet..

me now...i dunno...japan??would i be feeling differently if i were to be going to some other country???australia maybe?where ive always wanted to go..then..the question is why in the world did i apply for japan when i fill in the form??i never thought i would seriously end up with this scholarship...applying for japan was just for fun..talk about engineering!!hah!!
i know...you're probably thinking what the heck im talking about now..since im already leaving..well am ACTUALLY leaving on monday...yaya....forgive me..must just let me crap for the last time before i leave...wont crap anymore when i reach there..promise

haiz...im not convince about japan..going there for a holiday yes...but studying?ppl who know me really well should know that i prefer the western countries...the environment i meant...
im not saying japan is bad or anything..already a handful of ppl who have been there told me that they would have continued staying there if they had the opportunity...and for every youngster..going to japan is like a dream..sigh..
dont get me wrong...i like japan...i really do...cant wait to go there..it's just...prob comes with the engineering thing i guess...

sigh...as gideon puts it...prob. it's the will of God for me...He must have chosen this path for me cause He has plans for me over there...

sorry for all the whining and crapping again...wont do it anymore..
prob things will turn out to be better when i settle down there..after all it is the land of the rising sun...so the sun should be shining brightly when i reach there...we'll see...