the week is finally here.i am going back this thursday.and yet for another wedding.the wedding of someone who is so so dear to me,and had such a big influence in my life.this is my second time going back for a week plus to attend a wedding and i hated the aftermath of it.last year, i remember i was dead homesick after i came back to japan.one week is certainly not enough at all.plus all the high tension from seeing all long lost relatives and friends.

this time,i guess its the same.just that not so many ppl will be coming back for the one in msia though.the main thing is both ah yee and 2nd bro will be leaving msia after this.so i wont get to see both of them after im back for good.back for good..that sounded nice???after all these years here,im finally going back for good.what next u ask.there is that one month of soul searching to do.after that starts the real deal.im actually very very sick of ppl telling me what i should do and what i should not.ive heard and receive lots of 'advices' so called,asking me to stay here and get a job and dont go back to msia ..bla bla.the next one closest to it is to go and get a job and migrate to aussie.ive said a million times.its easier said than done.do u actually understand why i wanna go back to msia and not stay in japan?put aside the 'i dont really like japan' factor.there are actually other reasons to it that i havent really told anyone and i dont intend to either.ive prayed about it and have made up my mind.the Lord will show me his way and he will lead me to the right path.if it's his will for me to stay in Japan,who knows,i might get a job with a Japanese co.and might come back here again.but all that aside.the main thing is i am going back.where to after that is another story.period.

my one week back home is gonna be very pack.there is the passport renewing ,have to do my china visa and my int.driving license, not forgetting i have to find a dress for the wedding,and the wedding gift,have to pick relatives up at the airport,and of course help with the preparations.hope i have time to meet up with friends in between.its the week after the conference and i hope there are ministries that week.ive longed to hear an english ministry and maybe meet up with some peeps that i havent see for a long long time.

more to be written and said but for now i am over excited just to go back and hug everyone.including my little ah pek at home.

sighs..this 2 weeks is gonna be a very very emotional one.at least for me.i am just so thankful to get to go back and attend the wedding.